All things come to an end they say. So it is coming to pass that yet again we are closing a chapter of our lives and looking forward to the new one that approaches. In a way we all do this. All of us go through cycles. They may not be cycles of moving to new countries, changing profession, language etc but the cycles are there nevertheless. For us this cycle had its ups and downs, it's eccentricities and though it helped us no end, it feels good to be closing this chapter. This life, this world we immersed ourselves in for a year and a half was not our world. Nothing ever is, I guess that needs to be said, but this one was further off than normal I think. As I move forward wit Pepix into the next It may be worth pausing and taking stock, remembering and highlighting the things wee learned.
Growing things is beautiful. We had space and time here. We were lazy, unfocused and inconsistent about it but we grew. Life sprouted time and time again. We fed from the garden more than we deserved. Over summer there was a period of nearly two months where we bought neither fruit nor vegetables. It is such a rewarding experience to watch the green sprout up, the change in the micro-system. We watched the Blue Tongue lizard that lived under our verandah sunning himself. We watched the Scarlet Runners come back from the dead and cover the plum sucker sprouting from beneath the house from head to toe. We had the chance to learn so much out there and it was a delight. You should have seen Pepix's face when she unearthed our Potatoes! She said it was like natures piñata as she scrabbled among the upturned earth with me for the little treasures. Growing things is beautiful.
Space and time need balance. I came to Australia to rest and to save a few pennies. It was a good plan. I rested too much. Without the balance of things you love, projects or community, you wander. Well I do. I spent too many afternoons vacantly walking around in circles. There were things to do, dont get me wrong, but they were things I didn't have to do, so they didn't get done. There needs to be some strange balance involved. I haven't found it yet but when i do I think it will fill more than one 'blog'. You never know...maybe Japan. I have no regrets about this choice, this chapter, but I do look back and though I have done many things i lamented in Mexico that I didn't have the time for, I feel like i could have done so much more if I had arrived with a different attitude. Still, live and learn, live and learn...
I really dont have inspiration for writing today...which is a shame...i was hoping this would be the beginning of the return to regular blogging...maybe...maybe the embarrassment of this post will force me to write further posts...
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